Phone

I am starting to hate when my phone rings.

Every time it does, a part of me jumps into panic - where is the phone? Why is it never where I left it? What if I miss the call? Is it Lifetime?!

And then I find the phone and check the caller ID. So far, it hasn't been Lifetime. I want it to be them with news!

I am trying so hard to find and practice my patience (as I tell Monkey). When the time comes, we'll get the call. About the right situation, with the right baby(ies?).

I really wish I had a crystal ball.