A Month After

This past week or so has been rough.

I can't help but wonder

how Baby Girl is doing. 

She turned one month old on the 18th.

I thought R and I were close enough

to maintain contact.

I felt we had a friendship, 

regardless of circumstances.

I truly hope that R,

Baby Girl and her brothers

are doing well.

I hope that R's family 

really is stepping up and supporting her

the way that they said they would.

 It feels that texting R 

would be out of line,

and I don't want that.

Still, after a few months of chatting with her 

every few days,

it's kind of weird not to.

 

Monkey told me again that he wants

a baby sister.

Still maintains that he doesn't want 

a baby brother because

"I am already a Boy."

 

This is harder than I thought it would be.